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1 Month

It has been a month since the lockdown. Government confirmed that it will continue until the end of the month. People remain hungry. News here and there still make me teary-eyed and, futile. This shitty virus is still around and is continuing to do its job. Bad and sad updates every day. Got nothing good to do but to stay here until everything has cleared-up. I am bored. This has probably been the longest I have consecutively stayed in the house. But boredom is an understatement and is already coming with an irony. I have things to attend to. I have work to do. I have a child to take care of. But, I cannot do my chores. I cannot buy things. I cannot solve my problems. I cannot satisfy my cravings. I cannot live my life. The lockdown has been making me inefficient since I cannot fathom when anymore. These days are rather making my temper rise; my patience snap into pieces; and my sanity run in circles. I cannot do this anymore. But, yeah, I need to. My hands are empty, yet, I have a l...

I Cannot Understand

Dear Heavens, Please grant me clean air to gasp for things I can no longer take in anymore. Please grant me the knowledge to decide on things that will not keep me sane and alive. Please grant me the patience to understand things per se; their purpose, their worth and their intent. Because I just cannot understand. I cannot understand. I cannot understand anymore. I cannot understand. I just cannot understand. I don’t know and I really cannot understand. -Me