Space Between

I wonder why in one night, angst suddenly turns into happiness. Ok. I was happy. Until today, I still am. But until when?

Boy: You're such a loser. Me: AKOHHH? LOSER? AT BAKET??? Boy: Kasi pag nag-aaway tayo lagi ikaw nagsosorry. Ayyy. Ganun pala un. Haha. Ok.    

  1. B-U-L-I-L-Y-A-S-O. I’m gonna be in my boss’ list of "Today’s Tanga." I can’t say I didn’t know because I have an option to ASK. Why didn’t I? I was about to. But, why didn’t I?! Maybe I’m tanga nga that time. Haay. 2. I had pride for lunch. I pushed it. The reason why I got that fucking answer. Again, I overreacted. My bad. 3. I hate it when you’re hungry but then you just ate. When you feel hot in winter. When you cry when you don’t know who was lost. When you feel like a boy when you’re a lady. I just hate it when you feel it and yet you don’t have to. 4. It’s still here lingering. I wonder when it will get lost.. or if it will ever get lost. 5. How did he do that? It’s getting low. Low. Low. Low. Ako rin dapat! Sana 5:00 na.  

1. “Paano ba ako yayaman?” I guess every one of us is bugged by such question. Pero, paano nga ba? Like, I work and work and go home like a dead meat. I save so much that I could hardly treat myself every once in a while. I invest in a super small business which I prefer calling money-keeper, instead.   I am sending myself to school to at least help me provide something more in the near future. But damn, I don’t see anything clear yet. Is it too early to plan? Or am I just getting later than late? Or I shouldn’t be asking anymore?! Darn. 2.   I’m getting older in a month. And then? A year of preparation and hopes that this time it’ll be something different and then it turns out it just says hi and then bye. And then what happens after? The cycle goes on and on and on and I can do nothing but stare at the routine. 3. Why did I say I’ll make sabay??? I don’t need you. I can go home alone but what the hell did I say? I shouldn’t have said that??? Anyway, my justif...

As they say, misery loves company. Beer + friends = Things that you should have long realized and done.