Space Between

The year 2011 is about to end.   Feng Shui says it was a lucky year for me.   Well, in all fairness, I may say, things have gone better.   Luck probably had something to do with it, but of course, a big fraction was still brought by myself. I have been becoming  a big girl I guess. I have been trying to learn my lessons and apply such for the betterment of, who else, but me. And as I always say—Nobody else would take care of me better but myself. – And I still stay true to that. So thank you for all those who have been part of an indeed colorful 2011.   And for 2012, I wish for a better year, of course.   And for some more: 1.      I wish for forgiveness for those who have been continuously causing me pain.   After that, I wish they will finally realize that even people perceiving themselves as “pure” can emotionally tear hearts of people like me. Likewise, forgiveness to those people I have wronged, intentionally a...

So, I now have an in-law. Sister-in-law that is. Congratulations, Mr. and Mrs. Tetel Lagman. (for the 2nd time) Congratulations, Daddy, for shouldering the expenses. Hehe

If my world is just politics, I would have not written this at all. But then, it is not. I have been in an on and off relationship with frustration.  And as they say, it takes two to tango.  I wouldn’t want to blame myself alone though, plainly because of the “cause and effect” idea.  However, thinking much deeper, I guess, much of it is my fault. Even if they say your home is the place to rest your mind, mine still can’t.  My mind boggles me even if my eyes are already begging for sleep.  And if I have them awake, I still get the same feeling.  To tell you honestly, it pains my eyes to see you watch television with your arms on your drunk head as I arrive home exhausted from work.  And as I take a turn, my eyes then get poked with the view of another you staring at my laptop, doing rounds on Facebook while waiting for grace to land on your palm.  And mind you both, we are all adults. Then, you tell me I catch a lot of blessings to ...

  I’m turning a year older tomorrow. Like a little kid, I have always been excited to welcome my birthday like it has never happened before(not the addition of year, though).   And as a birthday gift for myself, as always, I’m planning to spoil myself.   And upon reviewing my last year’s blog, I mentioned there that, nobody can spoil me better than myself.   But hey! The good thing about this year is that I have somebody else to spoil me (hopefully, better).   Although I don’t want to expect so much on that, but, just the thought that I’d be celebrating the entire day with someone I love is nothing but special already.   Now, I feel special. ♥ .. and now, cheesy. Looking forward to my birthday with you and my family and post-birthday celebrations with all of you my crazy friends! And finally, who said only kids do have a wish list? I made up a list of the things that I’m planning to have on my birthday. Well, if I don’t get to get these th...

As we all know, in order to continue nourishing a relationship, you have to shower it with what it needs everyday.   Try to avoid things that you believe might harm it.   Isolate yourselves to the deadly sins that might ruin the beautiful emotion your fate has ran into.   You continue doing all those things. Yet, you forget that sometimes routine strikes immunity in a non-beneficial manner. I may draw a little confusion here.   When those are what you need, why would it not be beneficial? Here goes--Usually, people forget that routine is a cyclical manner of doing things over and over again. People feel safe of the everyday-doing that they become complacent that such would be enough. Yet, what they dont know is that, such routine made beautiful things seemingly ordinary. Fireworks suddenly have stopped making a beautiful scenario and rather became a usual picturesque of the day. Hence, there seemed to have been an unreal...

According to Cosmopolitan magazine, Cheating is defined as—“anything that you don’t want your partner to know about”. Then, if this holds true, a lot of us are committing this deadly sin.   I for one agree.   What is there to hide? What is there to not know about? I know a lot of people would defend themselves for reasons of avoiding incrimination or a potential fight and thus, euphemizing it as “saving the relationship”. But isn’t exposure to true happenings the best dose of the reality of life? Isn’t it a stronger relationship when everything is held as its foundation?  I really don’t understand why there is a need to conceal things.   As they say, its even harder to remember your fabricated stories than the real ones. So, why lie? More to that, w hen you do things that you think will ruin the relationship, why do it? When you have done things that made you look stupid, why continue being stupid by hiding and laughing at yourself by yourself? And if you ...

Dear Friend, I know it happened to you again. And I strongly agree that you do not deserve it.   Neither because you were good nor you were faithful, but, because nobody deserves to be treated that way-- Especially in your case. I know you are in pain now.   And I don’t have the best words for someone with deeper pain than I have had.   I guess nobody can help you heal another wound of yours.   I don’t wish to feel it though. I don’t expect you to ask it from people. I just hope time will tick faster that when you wake up one day, healing is finally born. We love you. Love, Me. *** It’s funny how a sparkling night suddenly turns into a moment wherein everything turns dark. But then again, it's always wiser to get a feel of both.