Burning Bridges

And now, I realized that burning bridges could do me wonders.  Why not? It still goes to my main goal- to finally get a positive amnesia on that certain part of my brain.  Stop everything related.  Cut lines and destroy its existence.  It may not be that easy but I know, in time, it will pay me good. 
I am hoping, with my fingers crossed, that I’d be able to finally pass this stage.  Although I can say that I have never been this better for the past months, I still aim for the total evaporation of whatever is connected to that regretful part of my life.   I still hope that that time is now. 
I must admit, I’m still freaking mad. I still cry due to emptiness, though not that often anymore.  I still feel the same painful feelings like as if things just happened last night.  I don’t miss him, though.  Rather, I miss the person he occupied.   Perhaps, the wound has not yet totally healed.    But as they say, every wound heals on its own in its own time.  And although fools say that it may take a while to finally recuperate from the pain, I have no choice but to wait.  And right now, I wait while I burn all bridges.

***Posting was delayed for months.  This entry was made several months ago. For now, the bridge...err.. "What bridge?!?"... Now you know..:-)***

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