My Pre-employment Exam

Last tuesday, I took a pre-employment exam on one of the best paying government agencies in the country.  I had to take a leave from my work and travel all the way from QC to Pasay. The exam was at 1:30 in the afternoon, therefore I have to leave at around 12:00 noon. Very hot. Adding to that, I was in my usual corporate outfit- tucked long-sleeves, pencil-cut skirt, 3-inch stillettos mtached with my gray stockings. Ang init, diba? I dont care.  I have been given that chance to wear my clothes again.  Of course I'll take it without any buts.

Blooper:  Instead of a 2x2 picture, what I brought was a passport-sized photo.  I never thought they were that strict when it comes to pre-employment exam requirements.  The proctor has earlier even asked people without complete requirements to leave and take the exam on another schedule, which is yet to be known. So when I asked the proctor if my pass-port-sized picture would suffice, she said- "Ay, next time ka na lang mag-exam (You can just take the exam some other time)". Darn! This cant be! I made it this far, literally. So, I looked for a 2x2 photo on my wallet anddd tadaaaah! I saw my ever reliable graduation picture.  FYI. Im a 2003 graduate so imagine how historical that photo is.  I even have my hair very short then and I had no braces yet. E un ang nakita ko meron ako e.

The nerve of the proctor to ask if I have any other picture. Stupid, if I have, I wouldnt have given you that. Nah. I didnt say that.  But when she asked- " Kelan pa to? (When was this taken?)" I confidently said- "Last year." Hahaha.

Oh well, enough of that.  What I am writing about is on the realization after the exam.

I passed. Of course.  Oh well, I'll elaborate on that later.  We were 44 and there were only 3 of us who passed. I then realized. Im still good. I am from UP. --Although my bitchy friend said Im already JUST from San Beda because Im currently taking my Masters there. (Bitch! Haha).

You see, when it is in everyday of your life that what you do makes you think that you are stupid and useless, you tend to gradually believe that it may be saying something real.  I know I am not good at what I am currently doing.  I agree that this is not my craft. But I need to work and this is what fate has given me.  Then, I have no choice but to rethink about my mental capability.

But then, I still can make it. I can still top them all. I bet those 43 are not 100% stupids. Im pretty sure there are average persons seated around me during the exam. But hey, I made it.  And I am nothing but proud.

Thank you for this. Thank you for still being me inspite of everything.

Then I can still proudly sing the UP chant--Walang takot. Kahit kanino. Hindi. Hindi magpapahuli. Ganyan kaming mga taga-UP! U!!!!!!!!!!

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