Engagement- Wedding

A lot of things has happened in the past months.  As they say, it has been a roller coaster ride of emotions with some other free rides.  Let me then recount my trip to my park of life.

As I have posted on my Facebook account, I recently got engaged to the man who believes waking up in the morning beside my morning aura would be the best thing on Earth. Of course, I likewise share the same.  But as we bring ourselves closer to being  on the same bed every morning, I certainly believe that we need a lot of carpentry.

We are not a perfect couple. In fact, there are times that we seem not a happy one.  We fought, fight, fight again and will fight almost every other day of our life together.  We get frustrated with our differences.  We almost neared blowing off the fire. We merely sang “Water Runs Dry” by Boyz2Men.  I know we are bothered by such differences and that these bring our arguments far, farther and even farther than far. But thinking of it, we may be provinces away from resolving issues and contrasts,  but, I know though, that we can take a ride together and get there.  And if not?  Well, there will not be if-nots.  What is a year-long planning of church promises for then? 

As I always say, we should not be blinded by the brightness brought by the fun of planning the future and the wedding per se, because when all has been done and finished, we will then go back to our usual self.—So to nurture happiness, we should keep eating vitamins for it.

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So, I got a promise of stealing my last name away.  And, I plan to surrender it on December.  I’m trying to make a website for my wedding but our Office Administrator is too busy blocking websites I can use for my wedding. Boo you. Good thing though I was able to request some significant sites which I can at least get a glance of. Buti na lang lalake ung Admin. Hehe

Right now, we are almost ready to take a rest from all the major suppliers.  We have already booked the church, venue, caterer, photographer and videographer. Some minor things are already in line, thanks to our network.  It took us almost a month of non-stop roaming around Manila for church-hunting only to find our church in Makati; all-weekends of food-tastings of a wide variation of taste buds-stimulators; exhausting talks with suppliers on rates, freebies and services; and finally picking just one amongst all we have visited.  I hope we can take them all, though. But of course that’s not possible.  Well, to start with, we are working on a budget. And although we are, I still hope that I get the best one that best suits my taste.  Yes, my taste. At first, I was always putting my guests’ convenience as my priority. But later on, thanks to my maid-of-honor-to-be, I should not care about them that much since it is my wedding. For a fact, my wedding only happens once in every five-hundred years. Then, I’m convinced.

I’m excited, really.  This is the first time that I got more excited on an event than my birthday.  I was actually thinking this would resolve my sleeping problems since I have one thing in my mind settled—but then, I’m wrong.  This excitement brings my mind, while on bed, in my church-to-be, walking in my white gown, with my groom waiting at the end of the aisle. See, I am excited.  And I guess, I have the right to be. At least now, I am happy transporting my mind from consciousness slowly to REM. Then, boom, one day closer to my big day. 

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So thank you for all these happiness inspite and despite of the usual arguments caused by it. Although I know that this is just for the time being, at least I enjoyed and is enjoying every minute of it.

Thank you for my fiancé who has always been trying and trying with me to bring together our differences;

Thank you to my parents who seem to understand that I-am-my-own-wedding. I am still hoping though that they will not impose some impossible things on the last minute;

Thank you for the financial capability to sustain my wedding.  Even though there have been financial- deprivation these past years on our part, I still feel well-endowed and ready;

Thank you for the solicited and unsolicited ideas of friends, relatives and other newly-weds surrounding me;

And, thank you for my immune system for not giving up on me these tired-but-productive days.

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Now, I ask for more patience to understand and resolve what fate calls when it is at times folding;

I ask for the ability to sustain myself and my life-to-be as days go on;

I ask for patience and further tolerance from those people who conclude based on limited facts;

I ask for understanding from people if and only if I become a bridezilla;

I ask for safety and security for myself and all my loves;

And of course, I ask for energy and good health for me, my soon-to-be bedmate, housemate and lifemate, my family and those creatures relevant on my wedding, not only today but also tomorrow and the following days.

* My last post was, me, still hoping for a wedding. Funny, now I am soon to be having my own.