Sick

I am sick. I wake up every morning thinking of all the conversations I should have had with people who continually judge me. And it ruins my morning.

I am sick. I sit to do my rounds of nature, pour water on my hair and have myself filled with sud and simultaneously inhales scenarios of arguments should I encounter negativities of my environment. And it ruins my time for myself.

I am sick. I wait in line for my transportation to work. Bake myself under the sun. Try to get some sleep on my way. While I do those, my eyes squint and my forehead wrinkles just imagining how bad I have become without the need to explain. An then, it ruins my travel.

I am sick. I see people spit senseless conclusions while I stare in the computer screen. I strain my eyes, my ears and my head. And it ruins my work.

I am sick. I travel to go home. I try to get something to make my stomach at the least happy, then I find none specifically.Then I go home, hungry and unhappy. And then, I just want to get some sleep. And it ruins my day.

I am sick. I try to get some sleep but my mind has its own characters doing its respective dialogues.And it ruins my sleep.

I am sick. Sick of these.




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