One Day

So many demons running in my head. Replaying events which remained a question for a while, answered but were not parallel to what really transpired. I was not born yesterday. In fact, I was born years ago, with battle scars here and there. Some have healed. Some, still hurt inside but look better in the naked eye.

Today, I’m wondering why I am writing this. The last time I penned one ended after so many times of struggling. Is this a sign I always tend to smirk at?

Admittedly, I sometimes become naive. I am stupid. I am stubborn. I am uplifted by all the butterflies inside me. But, I don’t want to be like that anymore. I want to know how it really feels to be happy. Not only because someone said that I deserve to be one, but I think, that is what any person passionately doing her job actually deserves.

So yeah. I have a right to ask myself. I am free to find what will make me believe. I can look around for my own sanity. Because no one else will do that for me. Not in this lifetime, I guess.

One day, it will come knocking on my door. One day, these demons will be defeated by angels in its own playground. And finally, one very fine day in my life, I will know how it truly feels.

Looking forward to that, one day, some day.

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