Let Me Cry

I have been holding on to these tears for quite a while because one, the source is unnecessary and two, it's something I should have long acted on. But for someone who's trying to fix her life and owning up to her mistakes, the pain of constant trying is so hard and exhausting. Sometimes, accountability and resilience aren't the best of friends.

But for now, before I wash away all these thoughts, literally, let me cry all these pain out. Let me open again myself to the vulnerability of my emotions. Let me bawl and be ugly meantime. I promise to be the strong person that I am again after. I promise that this will just be fast. 

And for sure, after all this, I will still remain a resilient one. I will hold on to whatever I have. I will try to become a better one. 

There's no other choice around, really. And that's how we live this life.

Prayers still. 


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