Birthday Feels

Tomorrow is my birthday. I have no plans, really. It was actually just a few days ago when I thought of taking a "leave" from work. "Leave" because when you are working at home, there is no such thing as leaving work. But after that, I have none until this very moment.

This feeling is so strange I barely recognize it. Since when did I lose my enthusiasm for my birthday? I don't know but the nothingness in me is unfathomable.

Grateful, still, for another year. 

Thank you.


 


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