Life of an Adult

I got my salary last week. After a few days, it turned into less than a quarter of it. I have some for my gas and a little allowance. But that’s it.

I was on lunch break. I asked a friend to go elsewhere with me so I can rant. He was working from home. I asked another, but he has not replied as of this time. Who do I turn to? No one in my mind.

I thought of getting coffee. I finally had a commercial coffee last Monday after months of persuading myself. My budget still allows one for me. But I opted not to. I’ll just save money for something else my son and I really need.

I wanted to entertain myself. I went down to find something interesting, which I do not even know what.  I thought of having retail therapy. But my budget says not now.

I faced the mirror. I wasn’t happy. I have lines and they get more. I have loose skin. And I got unhappier.

I paused from work. But I thought of something else. So I went back to grinding.

I guess this is my life now- Alone, ageing, boring, just working and always trying to save for something else not for me.

Adulting is not fun.

 

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